The first time I went to Puerto Alegria was in 2006. For the last 6 years, I have traveled to that same children’s home and watched as the young boys that used to braid my hair and color with me have grown into responsible and independent young men with jobs and girlfriends. From New Year’s dance parties to fishing adventures by the river, I’ve had 6 years of memories to create with the same children. It has been an amazing and humbling experience…
But when I arrived in Puerto Alegria this past January, I got off the boat and looked around the gazebo to realize I knew almost none of the faces staring back at me. I didn’t know their names, their stories, their favorite foods….nothing. I didn’t have years of memories logged and linked to their smiles, and it caught me off guard. These new boys just stared at our team. From fear and curiosity to amusement and apathy- they stared at us with the same expressions I’m sure our team received 6 years ago. A surge of anxiety and fear hit me as I looked at this new group and defensively thought: “Well- you’re cute, but I’ll never be able to love you as I loved the others. It’s just not possible. I don’t have it in me.”
in ME?…I didn’t have it in me.
As if it had anything to do with me in the first place…
As each day passed, I was amazed how the Lord would continually fill me with an abundance of love for each new child. These children were just as precious, just as hilarious, and just as in need of His love and affection. So, as I boarded the boat with my final goodbyes, I was struck with a familiar pain in my chest at the thought of leaving. I was fighting back tears. The same tears I’ve fought since 2006.
I’m starting to realize that as special and unique as the role is that the original group of boys has played in my life, that the Lord has called me to a ministry that cannot stop with that first group of 37. Just when I thought I couldn’t love anymore, I find myself fighting back another set of tears as the Lord expands the walls of my heart to welcome in a new group of children. It would seem it’s time to make some new memories.
I love these children so much, but it wasn’t my love that they ever needed. It was His. He is all they need. I must remember that I’m just the vessel of an abundant Love that will never run dry, despite how many new children I meet.




nice motor. We moved down the river about an hour and arrived at the place we would call home for the next week, Puerto Alegria. We were welcomed by 47 smiles excited for us to be a part of their world for the next week. And that is exactly what we did. Language was a barrier, but you don’t need words to preach the gospel. You just need love. We played soccer, took lots of pictures, laid in the hammocks, made crafts, built some things, laughed a lot and swam in the river.
